I was awakened in the middle of the night to the sound of our cat tossing legos up and down the hallway. As I lay still in my bed I was left with the decision to make. Should I try to ignore the irritating clanging and tapping and attempt to go to sleep, or bother myself to the point of bringing my body upright and stumbling in the dark to find the culprit?

Choosing the lazy approach, I remained in my bed, in the darkness realizing the complete irritation of the monotonous sounds. It reminded me of a leaking, dripping faucet that strangely seems to appear to get louder with every passing moment.

Becoming angry that this little animal was taking away my privilege of sleep, I glanced over at my husband. As I lay there looking at his face, I was reminded of a verse. Proverbs 27:15-16 “A continual dripping on a very rainy day and a contentious woman are alike; whoever restrains her restrains the wind, and grasps oil with his right hand.”

I was brought to complete humility, reminded once again of the importance of my role as his wife. My disposition, attitude, mood, expressions, and words make up the atmosphere in which he lives and breathes. Do my words represent how deeply honored I feel to be married to him? How I’m consistently finding so many reasons to respect him so much? Do I bring joy to his heart? Peace to his mind? Do I fill the rooms in our home with warmth and beauty? Or have I fallen away from my desires of the woman I want to be, into a pit of negativity and complaining? Through several pregnancies and small children to care for during the day, I’ve somehow given myself the right to lay my burdens at his feet, forgetting the intense privilege I have in the life he has worked so hard to provide for me.

Why is it so easy to unload, to be self-centered, and a challenge to uplift and to serve? I want my husband to find relief from his burdens when he comes into my presence. To have a place of rest, a place of peace.

The legos banging against the wall have been used by my Lord as a reminder of my countenance, the importance of my disposition in my home. I couldn’t bare the thought of my husband choosing to close his eyes around me, as an attempt to ignore the irritating sounds. I want him to rest peacefully knowing there won’t be any legos clanging in the night.

Proverbs 31:26 “She opens her mouth with wisdom, and on her tongue is the law of kindness.”