Picture me as a little girl wearing bright yellow zippered pajamas with feet, and my secret can be told.  I can remember waking up in the night as a little girl filled with fear because of thoughts overtaking my sleepless little mind. Maybe a dream left me stressed, or a worry seemed all consuming. I knew even then that my God was my friend, my protector, my safe place. I would grab my Bible and sneak into the bathroom. By the dim light of the rose colored night light, I would read Psalm 91. I read it so many times through the years that I could recite it from memory.

Fear overtakes. Fear makes us doubt the security God wants us to live in. Fear shakes us and we loose our perspective.

I knew when I began my journey with my Lord that it would not just be a dance through the flowers. I grew up reading the stories of Jesus’ disciples, and know that we aren’t taught that we might have tribulation, but that we will. (John 16:33)

Life with Christ is a ride. Be prepared to get wet. Yet even though we hit the rapids, it is amazing how He never changes. He is constant, never tossed by His surroundings.

Remember the story of the disciples on the boat? Where was our Lord? He slumbered. He knew the storm was on its way, and found a cozy place to sleep. This is our God. He is unshaken. We might have doubts in the midst of our fears that he cares for us, because we have let fear drip into our firm knowledge of who He is.

God’s response? “Take courage, I am here.” (Matt. 14:27)

“Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me. I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am.” (John 14:1,3)

As I still recite Psalm 91 in my bed at night, I am once again wrapped in His unmatchable peace. My eyes have returned where they belong, on my constant, unshaken, unchanging God. He fills me. There is no room for fear.